Another night

I would love to meet another person thats baring the same pain i am another night all alone . Not being able to sleep with one you most love . Even though if i asked him to come he would but this is day one of me staying strong to move on with my life 5 years and nothing has changed . I just cant understand myself to how i could love one person so much when all he's done is kill me on the inside now will i no longer be able to love ? This depression is killing me .